Post by Xander Harris on Aug 3, 2008 20:55:34 GMT -6
Xander was shocked as Anya yelled, he hadn’t seen her this angry ever. But he wasn’t going anywhere, he had to make her see how he felt about her. When she grasped his throat he gasped for air, she was strong, demony strong. At least now he knew how this happened so there was a plus, but damn it hurt to breathe. He felt the hard wall against his back and felt fear, he was terrified that Anya was going to kill him, freaking petrified.
He panted from fear but his eye never left Anya “I tried Anya, I tried so bad. You’ve seen Buffy fight, you know I couldn’t fight her and I begged her to turn the bus around so I could come get you. I wanted to find you, I wanted to be with you. But Buffy insisted we run and the one time I tried to run back to find you she nearly tore my arm off” He wanted to tell Anya everything, he’d been though hell since he lost her and he didn’t want to go back “I begged Willow to find a revivication spell or something to bring you back to me, but we couldn’t find one and damn did we look”
“It’s not guilt An, It’s love. Hell D’hofferyn told you, remember? ‘the boy see’s with the eye’s of love’? Ahn I still love you, that why I feel so guilty for leaving you there. But I didn’t have a choice, If I did I would have been fighting beside you instead of Andrew, I would have stayed there while the whole damn school fell down. I would have died for you and I still will” He let a tear fall from his eye, god he wanted this to be the way it was before, he never ever in his life loved anyone more than he loved Anya, he’d die if he didn’t have her back
“You aren’t a charity case Ahn, never have been. You’re Anya, the amazing woman who went to prom with me, who came into my basement and had sex with me without even blinking, something that I kinda expected. You wore a bunny suit to Halloween just to spend time with me, god that alone shows me how much you cared. You spent time with me and made me feel wanted Ahn, I love you and if you think you being a demon’s gonna stop that then you’re wrong. What do I have to do to prove it to you Ahn? Tell me what I have to do to prove that I love you, name it and I’ll do it. All I want is you back in my life can’t you see that?” he pleaded.
He panted from fear but his eye never left Anya “I tried Anya, I tried so bad. You’ve seen Buffy fight, you know I couldn’t fight her and I begged her to turn the bus around so I could come get you. I wanted to find you, I wanted to be with you. But Buffy insisted we run and the one time I tried to run back to find you she nearly tore my arm off” He wanted to tell Anya everything, he’d been though hell since he lost her and he didn’t want to go back “I begged Willow to find a revivication spell or something to bring you back to me, but we couldn’t find one and damn did we look”
“It’s not guilt An, It’s love. Hell D’hofferyn told you, remember? ‘the boy see’s with the eye’s of love’? Ahn I still love you, that why I feel so guilty for leaving you there. But I didn’t have a choice, If I did I would have been fighting beside you instead of Andrew, I would have stayed there while the whole damn school fell down. I would have died for you and I still will” He let a tear fall from his eye, god he wanted this to be the way it was before, he never ever in his life loved anyone more than he loved Anya, he’d die if he didn’t have her back
“You aren’t a charity case Ahn, never have been. You’re Anya, the amazing woman who went to prom with me, who came into my basement and had sex with me without even blinking, something that I kinda expected. You wore a bunny suit to Halloween just to spend time with me, god that alone shows me how much you cared. You spent time with me and made me feel wanted Ahn, I love you and if you think you being a demon’s gonna stop that then you’re wrong. What do I have to do to prove it to you Ahn? Tell me what I have to do to prove that I love you, name it and I’ll do it. All I want is you back in my life can’t you see that?” he pleaded.